Friday, January 8, 2010

A.I.S.H.I.T.E.R.U

Chapter 2 ♥ Inoue ; Ignorant

Pre Note: Sometimes, I know that the feelings do not match the story, but, whatever yeah? Just shut up and accept it okay! People accepted it so stop grumbling and accept it too! Haha. Don’t worry, I still love you readers ♥ just telling okay? So everybody clear about the mismatch? Good, lets start get the story rolling :D

A/N: I own ALL of the characters and the scenes! I know that some of the names may resemble some people from some anime, but, please, this story, I own it. EVERY single thing here is mine! So, yep! Let’s really get the story rolling. This time, for real~ enjoy and do remember to review okay? Loves!

// ~ //

I woke up in my futon. The mid spring sun shone down on my tile roof and some of the mischievous light rays penetrated through my beige curtains and the light started to shine on me. Though a little unwilling to leave the comfort of my futon, I still, however, got up and changed out of my pajamas to and into my sweats. Yawning, I waded to my kitchen and opened my small little baby blue fridge and peered into it. My blank stare met the void fridge interior.

“Did I really eat that much?” I wondered despite the fact of me knowing that staring at the fridge like a goldfish will not make food magically appear, but I continued to gaze at the fridge interior. I then stood up and entered into my room and saw a silver blue notebook (laptop) lying in the midst of my unkempt copper brown oak desk that sat beside the window ledge. As I waited, I subconsciously looked out of the window and saw the pathways of the bustling street being decorated by the blooming cherry blooming along the sidewalk. A soft wind blew across the windless land and loose petals rustled before fluttering down the sidewalk.

“It was just like this…” I thought as sadness washed over me…

// THAT Christmas Eve //

It was in the wee hours of the Christmas as I lumbered to the rooftop of the tallest building. Standing near the ledge, I took a deep breath and breathed in the cold crisp air of dawn and looked out to the never ending pitch dark sky.

“You are here to jump?” I turned and saw a lad with messy blonde hair. I smiled and gave him a high-five. We sat down on the rooftop and looked at the sky. He somehow looked very familiar.

“So why are you here?” He asked as he looked at me.

“To jump?” I giggled. He shot me a look and I sighed. I knew that nobody would ever accept that answer. I started to curse my stupidity.

“I want to escape… my past, my future… Everything?” I shrugged as I stood up and looked out at the blinking lights that lighted up the night scene. Tears blurring my sight, I shook my head as memories of my past, fear of my future washed over me. Suddenly warmth started to spread across my shoulder blades. I turned and saw his hands on my shoulder.

“Why don’t you tell me your life? They say that if one comes clean of their life, they will have a better next life.” He said with a sad smile across his face. I gripped my chest as I looked at him and shook my head. Slowly, I sat on the floor eyes on the wall.

“You know… my parents died at a young age, so I was really pampered by my grandparents.” I heard him whisper. I turned and looked at him, there I saw him resting his head on the parquet.

“My parents too left me when I was young…” I confessed. “So I was too left under the care of obaasan and ojiisan.” I whispered as I stared up at the starless sky. “And…”

I paused as I saw myself walk back to past. I saw somebody that looked like me looking into a mirror that reflected her gloom down look wearing a white kimono. Then, somebody approached me. I turned and nodded and was led to a hall which four walls are made of bamboo. In the front of the room, was a coffin. I turned around and all around me, I saw people crying. Young and old alike, friends and relatives, they were all weeping. Not understanding the reason behind their tears, I walked forward and peered into the coffin and to my horror…

“And obaasan passed away.” I continued swallowing my tears. I looked across the roof and there I saw another me, all grown up. There, I could see myself gulping down cups of alcohol and mixing around with those who are willing.

“Every night was a different man. 300k was my monthly average.” I confessed and peered at his face searching for any sign of disgust but found none. I could feel a part of the large stone that is holding my heart in shame has been released.

“Soon, ojiisan too died… working to feed my drug addiction…” My voice started to crack as tears started to stream down my cheeks.

“Desperately… I wanted to desperately love somebody…” I continued. “So, I loved Rose, Koko, Nono, Nemu… but, they all left.” I shook my head.

“And they’re?” He interrupted. I chuckled as I looked up in the sky and saw how the snow started to flutter down the sky.

“Cats.” I smiled slightly. Nodding his head, he invited me to continue. “Not being able to be loved by cats, that was the last straw… I really want to end this…” I whispered, my heart suddenly felt light as though a big rock has been disposed off.

“How about you?” I asked as I looked at him. Immediately, his eyes were clouded with an unreadable emotion.

“I’m going to die anyway, so must as well die earlier.” He whispered. I placed my hand on his shoulders in a sign of comfort and we talked about a lot of things. We talked until I fell asleep. After awhile, I felt somebody nudge me. I open my eyes and saw him looking at me gently.

“Dawn’s here.” He smiled. I arose and rubbed my eyes. Behind him, I saw the sun peeping through the buildings outlining it with hues of orange and yellow.

“Ready?” He asked as he stretched out his hand. I looked at him and nodded as I grabbed his hand and stood up on the ledge. I looked down and saw the roads being carpeted by layers of snow.

“Nervous?” He laughed. I then realized how bad I was trembling.

“Of course! This is my first time!” I retorted and he replied me with a light hearted chuckle. After a while, I then realized how funny my protest sounded and I too burst into laughter. Calming down, we continued to look forward the horizon, savouring each moment, then tears fell.

“What’s wrong?” He asked.

“What if… what if I don’t die?” I quivered. “What if I just enter into ICU… just like the previous time?”

“Then…” he started but remained silent. After awhile, he turned to face me with his hand stretched out. “Hi, I’m Ichigo” He smiled.

“Inoue.” I replied as I shook his hand.

“You know, if I’m the only one who die…”

“NO! You cannot die!” I interrupted Ichigo. “You cannot die! If you die, then we die together!” I swore earning a chuckle from Ichigo.

“if one of us were to live, the other must live their life properly because one of us has exchanged our life for the other's better life. Promise?” he asked. I looked at his sincere hazel orbs and nodded agreeing to the pact made.

“Aishiteru.” We both chorused at the same time. I then broke into a smile and hugged him.

“On the count of three okay?” I heard him whisper. I nodded as I broke away and held his hand. He looked at me and flashed me a smile.

“1…” I squeezed my eyes as memories of my deceased parents flashed infront of my eyes.

“Inoue, I want you to know that… even though you felt that your existence was insignificant, but I want to tell you, that that is false, cause, there is actually somebody who loves you.” Ichigo mumbled.

“2…” he continued. I opened my eyes and saw how far the horizon spread to and glance at Ichigo who was too staring at me. I stared blankly at his pale

lips which soon came crashing over mine.

“I love you… I really do…” Ichigo confessed. I closed my eyes momentarily trying to savour this sweetness before looking at him

“Goodbye.” I smiled weakly.

“I’ll wait for you.” He promised.

“3…” I smiled. Before Ichigo could even jump, I immediately grabbed his hand and yanked him back but a stronger force pulled me back.

// thud //

Panting, I lied on the snow covered roof. I turned and saw Ichigo lying beside me.

“I guess we were both thinking of the same thing.” Ichigo smile. Seeing his sweet smile, I can’t help but break into a giggle.

“I really really love you.” I whispered as I hugged him.

“It's cold, lets get ourselves warm.” Ichigo said as he reached out his hand. I sat on the snow with my knees brought up to my chest.

“Ne, when you said that there was actually somebody who love me, who were you talking about?” I asked as I saw Ichigo break into a blush. I giggled and pulled him back down before snuggling with him.

“Let's stay like this a little longer...”

// + //

“What are you thinking about?” I felt somebody tugging my shirt. I turned and saw my 4 year old son looking at me with his shiny puppy dog eyes.

“Nothing much.” I dismissed as I carried him and placed him on my lap.

“Who’s that?” I saw my son ask as he placed his chubby finger on the screen wallpaper which displayed my high school class picture. I smiled when I saw that nostalgic face.

“That’s your father.” I smiled as I put my chin on his head.

“Then when is daddy coming home?” He turned suddenly. Wincing at his sudden movement, I looked at the calendar.

“I don’t know.” I admitted. My heart winced in pain when I remembered the number of days in which I spent in solitude, it brought tears to my eyes at the sheer thought of it. The days of pain, how I wished that it would end. Out of the blue, I heard the doorbell rang. Placing my son down, I stood up and went to the door.

Tears of joy slipped down my cheeks. There in a military suit was a lad in his late 20s with a mop of blonde hair looking at me.

“Ichigo…” I whispered.

“Okaeri, Inoue.” He smiled as I rushed to his embrace, tears slipping down my cheeks

“Tadaimasu.” I smiled as I enjoyed his warmth.

+END+

A/N: THE end!!! Due to some change in plan, I decided to skip the special part of Akime and move on to the next chapter of the series. Enjoy it? this is only 4pages long. :D it’s the original so its kinda short. HAPPY new year to all my readers and may you do well in 2010~! REVIEW!!

(hehez, proudly edited by cjiayu! :P)